How My Brain Works…

Drowning in my pool of thoughts
Searching for reason and meaning
While feeling my sanity fade
Along with my whole being

Why can life be cruel at times?
It gives you waves to test your might
You risk a lot to prove your worth
Still you end up with your face in dirt

Does heaven really exist?
That state where perfection reigns supreme in the midst?
Or is it just a myth that makes us believe
That life can be a lot better than this?

And while these questions kept flooding my mind
You came along and moved them aside
You braved the winds and calmed the storm
You saved me from being alone

But then you showed me more it seems
You taught me to smile and dried my tears
But most of all you gave me love
And that is the greatest gift I got

Now my days are brighter than ever
Because of you I see them clearer
You brought changes I never knew could happen
The then impossible became a friend

Things aren’t always all that smooth
I still have troubles from my youth
But now I know I can get through
I’m much stronger because of you

If anyone asked me then if heaven is true
I would have said it isn’t because that’s what I knew
But all that changed, I now know better
Heaven exists, it sent me an angel

To my angel here on earth, this one’s for you

Hush…
Listen to what silence says
It makes a sound that echoes in the head
Close your eyes
Hear it loud
The sound lingers all around

Hush…
Free your mind and clear your thoughts
Let silence be the host
Take a breath
Even breaths
That tranquility may give you rest

Hush…
Through the quiet hear the music flow
Feel serenity replace your woes
Lose your angst
Stay at peace
Let silence put your soul to sleep

We are powerless beyond our being…
The hold we think we have on others is merely a manifestation of our influence.  How they choose to act is their own.  In the same manner, what we choose to do or how we choose to do things is our responsibility and no one else’s. 

The key word is choice…
We all have choices even if we say we don’t.  We may act in so many different ways or we may not act at all, but among these, there is always a choice to make.  And a choice made is a power exercised, and a commitment accepted.

Stars twinkling in the midnight blue
The moon shining down on you
The wind humming
The sea whispering
Horizon endless in the dim
Yet you know naught any fear
For everything is serene
Your spirit soars
Running free your thoughts
In the stillness of the night
Along with the pale moonlight
Crying out your pain
Tears shedding like the rain
But through the moonbeams they shine
Reflecting the starlit sky
And so hope floats
For as the moon continues to set
And the stars hide behind the dawn
The sun follows to rise
And tomorrow begins on morn

Another year has gone
Another one enters
Should I put closure on the year that was,
And turn the key on the one before me?
I’m not sure if I’m ready…

Now a year older
Hoping a year wiser
Leaving the mistakes behind
Armed with the lessons learned
I’m not sure where to turn…

Tears, heartaches, and pains
Changes, changes, and even more changes
All I mostly detest
Still they won’t seem to rest
I’m not sure if they mean to last…

The light of hope still peeps
Rain clouds dissolve in mists
Passion runs ablaze
Pure love still waits
I’m not sure until when they can stay…

Will everything be the same?
…better?
…or worse?
Will I win this game I play?
I’m not really sure…

All things I’m certain of:
A higher power exists;
Beginnings and endings will never be missed;
The world keeps on turning;
Life goes on living.
And through it all,
Love continues to be the greatest force ever to come into being

Cheers to wisdom gained over the years!

THE SERENITY PRAYER

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference. 
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;

Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
And supremely happy with Him forever in the next.
Amen.